/ dark fashion, get into it

'to take a photograph is to participate in another person's mortality, vulnerability, mutability. precisely by slicing out this moment and freezing it, all photographs testify to time's relentless melt.'

/ susan sontag, from on photography 1977

/ lately

/ my father & mother in our backyard, june 2012 webster ny

'lady of silences
calm and distressed
torn and most whole
rose of memory
rose of forgetfulness
exhausted and life-giving
worried reposeful
the single rose
is now the garden
where all loves end
terminate torment
of love unsatisfied
the greater torment
of love satisfied
end of the endless
journey to no end
conclusion of all that
is inconclusible
speech without word and
word of no speech
grace to the mother
for the garden
where all love ends.'

/ excerpt from part II of ash wednesday by ts eliot 1930

/ endless legs, self portrait irvington ny september 2012

 
/ stephanie, manhattan ny september 2012

'freedom is only to be found where there is burden to be shouldered. in creative achievements this burden always represents an imperative and a need that weighs heavily upon man’s mood, so that he comes to be in a mood of melancholy. all creative action resides in a mood of melancholy, whether we are clearly aware of the fact or not, whether we speak at length about it or not. all creative action resides in a mood of melancholy, but this is not to say that everyone in a melancholy mood is creative.' 

/ martin heidegger, german philosopher

/ my love, ballet, the beautifully magical (and fitting) combination of beauty & pain

/ obsessed with maison martin margiela -- super brilliant
'early on in his career, martin margiela deliberately avoided the limelight so as to allow his fashion to speak for itself.. illustrated quite literally in his photograph from a/w 2001. it not only radically dismantles the politics of the celebrity cult but also attests to the house's fascination with the vulgarity of stardom and the divaesque.'

'there are no absolutes for something so relative as a human life'

/ hugh prather, from notes to myself 1970

/ some outtake stills from a fashion shoot i did in august at breezy point brooklyn ny

'we tell ourselves stories in order to live... we look for the sermon in the suicide, for the social or moral lesson in the murder of five. we interpret what we see, select the most workable of the multiple choices. we live entirely, especially if we are writers, by the imposition of a narrative line upon disparate images, by the "ideas" with which we have learned to freeze the shifting phantasmagoria which is our actual experience.'

/ joan didion, the white album 

/ self-portrait before sleeping with you, july 2012 brooklyn ny

/ sonia, atlantic studios manhattan ny august 2012

'my mind has been the most discontented and restless one that ever was put into a body too small for it. i never felt my mind repose upon anything with complete and undistracted enjoyment - upon no person but you. when you are in the room my thoughts never fly out of window: you always concentrate my whole senses.'

/ john keats, letter to fanny brawne   

/ latest obsession, goji berries. known for anti-aging properties, stress relief, and improved sleep

/ but i carry this feeling/ when you walked into my house/ that you won't be walking out the door

/ jonathan, living hope church in brooklyn ny august 2012

/ portrait of the artist as your friend, 2012

'you, apple,
are the object
of my praise.
i want to fill
my mouth
with your name.
i want to eat you whole.
you are always
fresh, like nothing
and nobody.
you have always
just fallen
from paradise...'

/ excerpt from ode to an apple by pablo neruda

/ charlotte

/ beautiful softness

/ louise bourgeois, french-american artist 1911-2010

/ suddenly it felt so close & attainable that the prospect of it all was nearly devastating...

/ went to beacon new york today to visit the dia: beacon museum, beautiful building, very minimal and serene with great great lighting - perfect for meditation. i sat in this room for over an hour, it felt so comforting