brothers saturday morning scrimmage
im rubbish at sports photos
(i like the expressions on their faces)

went to lake with sister today

take this kiss upon the brow! and, in parting from you now, thus much let me avow- you are not wrong, who deem that my days have been a dream; yet if hope has flown away in a night, or in a day, in a vision, or in none, is it therefore the less gone? all that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream. i stand amid the roar of a surf-tormented shore, and I hold within my hand grains of the golden sand- how few! yet how they creep through my fingers to the deep, while I weep- while I weep! o god! can I not grasp them with a tighter clasp? o god! can I not save one from the pitiless wave? is all that we see or seem but a dream within a dream? 'a dream within a dream' by edgar allen poe, 1849

my dear friend jd
april 2008

still from eagle vs. shark
saw this film last night at megs, recommended
its all about love & awkwardness

parents room

november 2008

"as i progressed further with my project, it became obvious that it was really unimportant where i chose to photograph. the particular place simply provided an excuse to produce work...you can only see what you are ready to see - what mirrors your mind at that particular time."

- george tice, american photographer

grand sumo tournament
los angeles, ca - june 2008

2 (body)
implacable is even a light wind
let us try counting these seasons
and let us begin with shivers of fear
life lost in the product
of maintaining life
knowing the marvelous is not given
in waiting what is certain gets lost in the air
a body to be moved
because behind or beneath is a body
already dead of a servant

excerpt from "self-consciousness of a servant" by antonio porta.
drawing, august 2008

caleb

syracuse, ny - november 2008

girls by waterfalls
las vegas, nv - summer 2008

"..his whole life would be a journey - a search for meaning and order, for beauty and redemption, for contact with something larger and more lasting, for community, connection and home."

- ansel adams documentary

the further i move from religion, the more beauty i find in its iconography
syracuse, ny - november 2008

versailles palace gardens
versailles, fr - summer 2007
(one of the best days of my life to date)

sketchbook
october 2008

the essence of place
various places - 2008

(i want to live inside a single fleeting moment)

"..see the whole thing is a world full of rucksack wanderers, dharma bums refusing to subscribe to the general demand that they consume production and therefore have to work for the privilege of consuming, all that crap they didn't really want anyway such as refrigerators, tv sets, cars, at least new fancy cars, certain hair oils and deodorants and general junk you finally always see a week later in the garbage anyway, all of them imprisoned in a system of work, produce, consume, work, produce, consume. i see a vision of a great rucksack revolution thousands or even millions of young americans wandering around with rucksacks , going up to mountains to pray, making children laugh and old men glad, making young girls happy and old girls happier, all of 'em zen lunatics who go about writing poems that happen to appear in their heads for no reason and also by giving visions of eternal freedom to everybody and to all living creatures..."

- the dharma bums, jack kerouac
(one of my favourite books)

be conscious that no matter what happens, this is our destiny